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Neurosurgeon Appointment

So as you can tell from the title…my neurosurgeon appointment was today.  It was not good.  My mom and I waited three hours to see Dr. Ricca, a very highly recommended neurosurgeon.  My mom was generally optimistic…figuring that my problem would be as easy to fix as her mom’s.  See, my grandma just had surgery via Dr. Ricca to repair a fractured  back that had pressed on her nerves and made it impossible for her to walk.  Now, after over 6 months of being confined to a wheelchair and in severe pain, my grandma can walk!  She and my mom were very impressed by the surgery because my grandma was walking right after it and the incision site was very small.  My mom figured that if I needed surgery (which she doubted I did), it would be just as simple and successful.  We already knew what was wrong.  The disk between my 4th and 5th lumbar vertebrae is degenerated or herniated…whichever.  It has been putting pressure on my nerves since I was 16…causing me to have varying degrees of hip and leg pain.  Even though I had done some research on disc herniation, I was not prepared for today’s news. more…

Raw

I absolutely cannot sleep at normal hours anymore.  I tend to go to bed around 4 and wake up around 1…consequently missing all my classes.  I go to my Tuesday morning class…Abnormal Psych.  Mainly because Adam drags me out of bed.  All we learn about is serial killers…which quickly fuels my paranoia but Adam doesn’t know about that.  Xanex does nothing for me…I assume it lets me sleep but really, by the time I go to bed I am so exhausted that I’m not sure a lack of Xanex would prevent sleep.  Sometimes I think that sleep is just pointless…I could get so much more done if I stayed awake.  But then…I don’t really have anything to do so what would I get done?  And sleep is such an escape…the bed is so comfortable.  I just float in it and listen to all the little noises that only I can hear.  Eventually I sleep and have dreams that are better than real life. more…

General Update

It took longer than I desired to get this second post up.  I’ve been working on ideas for post topics.  I have several.  Once a week I would like to do a profile on a pet species or breed.  A couple of ideas for posts on controversial topics have come to mind…but I think I would like to save those until I have a more established following.  Otherwise, I’ll just end up repeating myself.    I also figure that I should give general updates on my personal status as well.  This is a tricky topic because I definitely do not want to sound like I am whining or anything of the sort.  I also do not want this blog to become a place for me to just rant about my problems and struggles.  Really, that is selfish and not entertaining, informative, or a good method for advocacy.  On the other hand, without personal updates this blog becomes very impersonal.  I do not want to make myself into a reporter of hot media topics.  Therefore, please bear with me while I find the appropriate balance for this blog. more…